A Quick Question, With a Not so Quick answer.

So, I was asked recently, "What's one trait you hate about yourself?" I've never really thought about it in depth, so I sat down and actually did. I was going through my emails that I have from Ex's (yes I keep them shut up) and I came across something that I had written kinda for myself... I just wanted to share, because I think it is one trait that I truly hate about myself.

Hmmm, I'm very picky when it comes to guys. I wish I wasn't. I don't give them a chance because of the smallest thing. Everyone says it's because I'm scared to actually let someone in, and that I only hold onto the ones that hurt me because I know there's no chance of us getting too close. That may be true, but I think that I have had good guys, great guys, and horrible guys and So now I know what I want...I'm not willing to settle. I guess I'm picky, and that's what I hate. Well maybe it's necessarily being picky maybe it's just because.... guys aren't suppose to wear turtle necks, they aren't suppose to have a messed up grill, not suppose to be too tall, talks with his hands, mean and rude to his mom, too much of a friend, WAY too clingy (more so than any girl), he's not over the age of 'old', his name is Andrew (LOL had WAY to many bad run in's with guys with this name), Too skinny, looks like an ex, ACTS like an ex, opens the door for me too much, doesn't want to go anywhere fun because one of his students might see him (yes he's a teacher and he was in his early 30's), His hair is too long, he tells me to pick something and then when I do tries to change my mind, doesn't watch the movie when we go to the movies, talks about himself and ONLY himself, can't stop talking about how muscular his own body is, hair's too greasy (too much damn product), tries to kiss me on the first date and when I don't kiss him freaks out, thinks if we DO kiss that we are 'together' and gets pissed if I talk to a friend that I've had for years, is too short, has no neck (ok he had a neck but it doesn't seem like it to me), said the word 'UM' too many times, eats like a damn idiot and holds the fork like it's trying to get away, CHEWS with his mouth open, doesn't eat meat (WHAT GUY DOESN'T EAT MEAT!!!) LEAVES when I'm going to the bathroom because I told him my ex and I still talk after he ASKED me if we do, then texts me and asks me if he can come back, won't let me get off the phone when I'm working, tells me that he can change me and make me more affectionate, doesn't stop talking about wanting to give me a message, even in the middle of a normal conversation, is in the Secret Service (freakin' crazy), has 2 large dogs that SLEEP IN HIS BED with him and their hair is EVERYWHERE!!! (seriously I didn't take my shoes off in this house because I'm pretty sure if I did, my socks would come out looking like hobbit feet, is way too forward about his sexual life, tells me he can help me with the way I 'dress' (sorry I like the way I dress, and I think you might be gay), Oh and I had one guy that asked me if it was because he didn't go to college WTH!!! LMFAO!!!! YOUR MOM GOES TO COLLEGE!!!!

Yes, these are ALL actual people, and dates that I have been on... They are all different people, and only a few came from the same guy. I honestly could go on and on. So how about YOU tell me what my problem is.