Sooo... I have some news...

I found out in the beginning of November that my bakery is not closed for the winter...it's more like open and ready for business. The pipes are not pinched shut (thought you would like that Michelle) even if I think they should be... I'm 10 weeks, and I'm due in July sometime.

This is not exactly how I figured my first pregnancy to go down, and the baby's Dad sure didn't make it very easy on me when I told him. I felt horribly alone although I had all my family and friends that I knew loved me and supported me. I'm good though now, I don't need his blessing on all of this. If he wants to act like an immature asshole that's his problem not mine. It's something he will have to deal with. He hasn't told his family yet, and said some pretty weird stuff concerning the baby that frankly, I find very unattractive. I haven't seen or heard much from him since I told him I was keeping it.

Any one of you that know me know that I never wanted to have kids in the first place so this is kinda a big deal for me... and to know that I'm going to be doing it on my own, it's gonna be an even bigger deal for me.

I just got done with fall semester and I apply for the Dental program in January after some observation hours. Regardless of how this is all going down I'm not stopping school... I've put it off already for all the wrong reasons and people. I want my career already, and nothing is going to stop me... this baby is just going to have to come along for the ride. LOL I'm super psyched that I got a 90% on my Anatomy and Physiology final... that has nothing to do with anything, but I thought I would add that. =)

Either way, this morning sickness is bull. I don't even know WHY they call it 'morning sickness' when it lasts ALL freaking day! I feel like my stomach is an endless pit that I can't ever fill, and i feel 110% fatter than I did before. Honestly, I can't think of one good thing about being pregnant, and I'm blown away that some women actually love being pregnant... WTH?!? LOL

One thing I'm excited for though is naming it... *Hahaha* I'm always trying to name everyone elses babies... and helped a bit with Ethan's, so now this time it's MY say and I've got some pretty good ideas! Oh, and it's going to be a boy. I've already decided that. If it's a girl... I'm selling it on ebay.

Elisabeth is out here right now. She's got a lot done. We are just trying to get her a GED and a drivers license before she goes back out to Europe at the end of this month. We will be leaving on the 18th to go over to California for the holidays. The whole family will be there to welcome the 3 new members to the family: Ray's new wife Delilah, baby Ethan Riley and Michelle & Ryan's new little girl Jocelynn. I'm super excited! I love my family =)